Happiness- Saturday

Well, like I said that I was going to, I am reflecting on this past week in all the positive ways that I can..

First off, Easter Sunday was good.  I got to meet another one of Tyler's aunts from South Carolina (met the first several months ago).  We enjoyed time at my aunts as well. 

Monday & Tuesday mornings, I got to work with a younger age group at work (the 2 1/2's) and I really enjoyed it.  They are great kids.  So smiley & energetic.  Tuesday morning I was asked if I would like to work with a younger group since I did so well with them.  I thought about it and told my director that I would really like that. 

So...

Wednesday afternoon, I got to start with the 2 1/2's.  I was a little nervous at first just because this was the other 2 1/2's class that I had not been with those two mornings.  I had only been with this class for 10 minutes each morning while I was giving a break.  But it has been fun.  I really like not being so stressed when I come home from work.  I love my 4's with all my heart, don't get me wrong, but I felt so helpless & completely worn out everyday when I left.  I just work with younger ones easier.  Some do. 

Thursday, pretty much the same.  Work.  Fun. 

Friday, I got to see my best friend in the whole world & her boyfriend & they came out to the boonies with us to hang out. We had a good time.  Watched a birthday boy make a complete idiot of himself. 

...& today, just relaxing

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I forgot to mention, but it should go without saying, we are okay from the horrible storms & tornadoes that came through on Monday. We were spared on Tuesday too.

Happiness Project

As we all know, I'm pretty horrible at staying committed to projects unless it's somethng that I'm doing for someone else as a gift.  But this one, I feel like I have to do.  Without going into any major detail, I have been very unhappy for quite some time.  I'm talking a couple of years.  Of course I have had my good days; they are not all bad.  But overall, I am not a happy person.  I've struggled with a lot lately. 

Anyway, so I've decided at the end of every week, I'm going to reflect on all of the good happenings of the past week.  It's worth a shot, right?  I know that my problems are deep, but all of the positive that I can draw out of my life might help me from thinking "Wow, this week sucked" and it might keep me from feeling so exhausted at the end of the week so that I can enjoy my weekends more.  What do I have to lose?  Everyday, I'll document things that made me happy.  I may still be in denial that I need to talk to someone again, but until the funds become available on top of all the other bills that I have, I'm trying everything that I can. 

I want my life back.

I want to be a happy daughter, a happy wife, a happy sister, a happy friend, a happy teacher.

I'm walking into this as being a success and for it to be a step forward.  I would love to have someone join me in this.  Either join me, or help me to keep the positive in perspective. 



Busy...

Sorry that I haven't posted anything in over a week.  We have been trying to get the house situation figured out.  Waiting on phone calls.  Tyler has been out of work for 3 weeks from the torn cartilage in his knee.  We now know that he has a disease (don't say gross) in his knee called Osgood Schlatters (or something like that) that causes the tendons to swell.  But luckily he doesn't have to have surgery, and can return to work on Monday... Yay!! 

I started working full time this week (thank God), but I have been busy busy and completely wiped out.  So, hopefully I'll get to start blogging regularly again soon. 

Happy Earth Day!!!

Waiting..

Tomorrow is whenever we get the call about whether we will get this house and land or not.  We still have a very good feeling about it, and so does the lady who has been working with us.  We already have the down payment, and the lot picked out, we just need the house.  We have already started getting excited about what we are going to do with it.  We are already planning on living in it for a while, and then trying to rent it out, if not possibly just sell it. 

I took pictures the other day, but there are too many to post on here.  We'll just wait until we get furniture inside :)

The excitement of just thinking everything that we can do with this place is crazy!! We picked the perfect lot to build a deck and patio off the back.  Just enough of a drop to take advantage of.  We are excited about the kitchen... Ahhhh, aren't we excited!! It's huge!! Another thing, the spare bedroom.  We are doing it in... You guessed it... John Deere!! We're doing this for Carter.  He still deserves his own room, just like he has here.  It's our way of keeping him in our home... and in our hearts (which he could never leave there). 

Also, we want to plant a memorial garden.  I am very excited about working on this. 

It's all a very exciting thing.  Still keeping our fingers crossed that we get the best news possible tomorrow.

Soapbox

For quite some time, I have maintained the same mindset for 'lazy' people. You know.. The ones who don't know (or maybe they do) the difference between 'won't' and 'can't'.  

I am one of those who reads inspirational stories, and even if I wasn't, I'm smart enough to know that people who suffer from terminal illnesses persevere everyday. Lance Armstrong for example. He suffered from brain, lung, and testicular cancer. He never let that stop him. I know everyone is different, but some people are just straight up lazy. 

You can't be picky about a job, and then gripe about not having money. Nobody is going to feel sorry for you.

I don't pity people who WON'T help themselves. Bottom line. 

(stepping off soapbox)

Keeping Our Fingers Crossed

Well, we have submitted our application for a home!! Keeping our fingers crossed that by next Tuesday, we will have positive news.  We have already been promised that we will no longer have to live in this apartment after June 28.  And... WE WON'T!!  Nothing is going to get in our way of getting out of here.  We deserve the chance to get into something that we can call our own. 

We are going to check out land lots this weekend, and hope that we like them, and can stand there and see our home there.  We are very excited, and have a really good feeling about this.  Keep your fingers crossed for us!!