Prayers

I'm starting to have a really difficult time handling things. Tyler tries to keep me on the positive side, but it doesn't always work. I don't even know why I worry about certain things either. It's pointless and a total waste of energy. I just want to relax again. We're slowly but surely getting ourselves out of debt. Trying to get all the past paid off. Yes, I'm helping pay stuff that I wasn't involved in. You shouldn't ask why. It's pretty obvious. Some of them are coming close to being paid off :). So again, I don't know why I get so upset. Maybe it's because I've been sick on and off for a while and I'm not only physically worn out, but mentally and emotionally. We've got a lot going on in our lives. I think both of us feel a little overwhelmed at times. But I have faith, even if only a little, that things will work themselves out. They always do. 

We have a busy week ahead of us. Today, Tyler starts back in college :) So proud of him!! Olivia will be here after 5 tonight.. & along with everyone else, we are so ready to meet her. It's gonna be a tear fest I'm sure. She'll be the first baby that Tyler has held since Carter. I pray he'll be ok to hold her. I've had to make myself be ok with it. She'll be beautiful!! This week, we start paying bills for the month. It's never been as scary as it is now. Again, I'm sure it'll work itself out. Afterall, our tax refunds come in this week :). 

I also have another thing thats weighing on my mind. An old friend called me out of the blue and came by the other day. Part of me wasn't all excited to see her. I'm hoping that's because I was sick and didn't want company really. Because if it's not, I'm gonna be made to feel like crap for something I can't control. You can't make yourself happy about something. Can you? 

Anyway, that's all I've got. A lot on my mind. Trusting God will pull us through this, and give us strength when we are weak.