Simple Isn't Our Style....

I miss how easy things used to be.  I miss being able to wake up, and my mom or dad dresses me, makes my breakfast, takes me to school.  I didn't have to buy my own clothes, my own food, and didn't have to put gas in my car.  Or even have a car.  I didn't have a care in the world. The most that would hurt my feelings is getting in trouble for something. So much different now. I wish things were easy, but I don't struggle alone. I'll never struggle alone. A year and a half ago, my life was completely different. I didn't think id give someone enough time to prove himself to the point where I knew I'd wanna spend the rest of my life him. I've never had a relationship so hard. But I don't regret a single big of it. I love Tyler with all my heart. And our promise was " for better or worse" and "through tough and easy." We have been through hell the past year. It's been one thing after another. But nothing so hard to cause a split. That's how I knew we were meant for each other. We even each other out. We both help each other through losses of loved ones. Everything were supposed to do.

We've struggled with finances; despite what people think, WERE NOT LOADED!!!!! We've struggled with the loss of Carter. Among other things. I don't wanna ever compare situations, but people don't think were having "that hard of a time." I try to keep things in perspective, but the higher the stress I'm under, the harder it is. That's what I have Tyler for. I keep telling myself that it can only get better. It's about time for something large to go right for us. Like getting into the house we want. That'd be ideal. I know there will always be someone out there worse off, but that doesn't mean my problems and concerns don't matter. And that's what I wish people would realize.

Tyler and I really are doing well for a young married couple. We work through our problems, and sometimes we don't come right out with what's wrong, but eventually we will. And we do have financial problems, and especially around Christmas it's hard, but he's right, we haven't gone without the necessities. I try to keep that into perspective. But that's another huge change I've had to deal with. Before him, I had money & wasn't forced to spend it. Now, things are way different. But again, I know the struggle won't last forever and I'm never alone. I have the most amazing support system :)

Despite all troubles, I AM BLESSED!!!!!