A very cluttered mind

Yesterday I was very upset because I felt like my friends and family were really letting me down about something. I feel a lot better about it today because things turned out better because of one person. I have always thought that family was most important; friends come second. But because Tyler has a very distant relationship with a lot of his family, he relies on his friends to be his family, besides me and my family. Sometimes my friends do more for me than my family. I am not referring to people specifically because that is drama that I am not intending to start. All I have to say is that I wish certain people would care more. I am tired of them pretending to care and/or being fake about how they are with us. I feel like we are a huge inconvenience to some people. We have been through a lot, and all we are looking for is some support. We have taken the steps to help ourselves so I am tired of people acting like we are working backwards. We are progressing. I am thankful that we have the same doctor so we are all able to communicate and stay on the same page with our conditions.

It's hard to think of Carter being almost 2. It's hard to picture him even crawling. It's hard to picture him doing anything that he wasn't able to do. It's all sitting in my mind. I'm not angry about it, but I am very upset. I wish that we could go broke spoiling him to death. I have been doing a lot of thinking about having kids. Tyler and I will have many more talks about it. It's a complicated situation. One that I am blessed that we are getting to discussed rather than having to make it work because it has already happened.

I'm gonna leave it here.

The Past Week

Well, needless to say, it's been a rough past week.  It's not like me to go a week without blogging.  I just haven't had much inspiration, or time, to get on and post everything.  My mind is so cluttered. 

Anyway, I've recently started a new project that will be done in August, maybe July.  I am pretty excited about it.  I kind of already gave up on my 30 day challenge (I can't commit to daily things much anymore :/ ).  But this project is one that I've never done before, and I am excited to see how it turns out. 

As everyone (or most) knows, Carter's first birthday was on Tuesday.  It was a sad day, but we made it through the day without "losing it."  I kind of got a little bit of anger directed towards me.  Some that was completely unnecessary.  But I guess when you are hurt and anger, things are said, some things that aren't meant.  Maybe they were, maybe they weren't.  Either way, it didn't stop me from caring for Carter, nor did it effect my appreciation for prayers that were said for Tyler and I.  God knows the truth, and he is taking care of everything.  And that's what I have to believe.  Tuesday was a day of reflection and prayer, not for family feud.  We all love him and miss him very much despite what the other side says.

Moving on.

I have debated on whether to publicly announce something that has me very excited (I doubt it's what your thinking).  Few already know.

Nahhhhh, I'll wait....

Meanwhile, we are slowly, but surely accomplishing goals that we have made for ourselves, together and separately.  We are adding to the list frequently, and subtracting at the same pace.  In a little over a month and a half, we will be on our way to considerably lower payments on our monthly bills.  Oh yeah, you don't even have to ask.  EXCITED!!!

Soon, my hubby and I are going to start seeing a therapist.  And for you people who think therapy is only for nutjobs and such, (sadly mistaken).  Some yes, but mostly, no.  I get tired of hearing that.  And the "What?? I thought you were going to school to be a psychiatrist.  Why would you need one?" The answer: Because death of a loved one will take its toll on you, sinking in debt will too.  Problems as such will cause sleepless nights and irritability, and why am I explaining myself?  There is nothing wrong with needing to talk to an outside source.  Psychology and psychiatry isn't always concrete.  Our marriage is in no way in jeopardy.  These are just personal struggles that we both have, we both understand, but we are past the point of being able to help each other through them, and that's okay. 

Last, but not least, I have started the MINOR planning for our first wedding anniversary party.. Details TBA!!

Okay, I think I've just about updated everything.  I'm ready to start writing again.  Bring it on, inspiration!! (And I'll be blogging about therapy once it starts)

God Bless

Interesting Facts & Weird Ancient Laws

Some random facts I found on my "Cool Facts" app on my phone.. [..it doesn't take much to amuse me.. ;)]

• Reno, Nevada is west of Los Angeles, California.
• 23% of all photocopier faults worldwide are caused by people sitting on them and photocopying their butts.
• Nazi leader Adolf Hitler had only one testicle.
• Fried spiders taste like nuts.
• To burn off one plain M&M candy, you need to walk the full length of a football field.
• Istanbul, Turkey is the only city in the world that is located on two continents.
• Horse can't vomit and pigs can't look up in the sky.
• Nutmeg is extremely poisonous if injected intravenously.
• Dogs and cats, like humans, are either right handed or left handed.
• "Goodbye" came from "God bye" which came from "God be with you."
• Wasps that feed on fermet occasionally get drunk and pass out.
• A person who is lost in the woods and starving can obtain nourishment by chewing on his shoes. Leather has enough nutritional value to sustain life for a short time.
• In the 1920's, Q-Tips were invented by Leo Gerstenzeng who got the idea after watching his wife clean their baby's ears with cotton stuck onto a toothpick.
• Babies are born without knee caps.
• The name Jeep comes from the abbreviation used in the army for theGeneral Purpose vehicle, G.P.
• Every continent has a city called Rome.
• Kissing is healthier than shaking hands. [THiS iS WHY i KiSS MY HUSBAND ;)~]
• Flamingos pee on their legs to cool themselves off.
• Brazil is the location of the worlds widest road; 160 cars can drive side by side.
• Back in 1924, a monkey was convicted in South Bend of the crime of smoking a cigarette and sentenced to pay a $25 fine and the trial costs.
• The FDA allows an average of 30 or more insect fragments and one or more rodent hairs per 100 grams of peanut butter.
• To take an oath, ancient Romans put a hand on their testicles, and that is where the word "testimony" comes from.
• The phrase "rule of thumb" is derived from an old English law which stated that you couldn't beat your wife with anything wider than your thumb.
• There is a cemetery town in California named Colma. Concerns about the public health, crime, and the need for space forced the city of San Francisco to outlaw burials in 1902. The city of Colma, which is five miles south of SF, was established to bury the dead. The ratio of dead to living people is 750 to 1.
• In 1976, an LA secretary named Jannene Swift officially married a 50lb rock in a ceremony witnessed by more than 20 people.
• Cats cannot taste sweet things.
• The powder on chewing gum is finely-ground marble.
• There was no punctuation until the 15th century.
• Smokey the Bear's zip code is 20252.
• The name Wendy was made up for the book Peter Pan.
• At Andrew Jackson's funeral, his pet parrot had to be removed from the ceremory because it was swearing.
• To escape the grip of a croc's jaws, push your thumbs into its eyeballs. It will instantly let go.
• All of the Earth's continents are wider at the north than in the south- and nobody knows why.
• 40% of all people at a party will snoop in your medicine cabinet.
• Most dust particles in your house are made from dead skin.
• Walt Disney is afraid of mice.
• In 1980, the city of Detroit presented Saddam Hussein with a key to the city.

Really Weird & Ancient Laws

• In Halethrope, MD, kisses longer than one second are illegal.
• In Memphis, TN, it is illegal for a woman to drive by herself. A man must walk or run in front of the vehicle, waving a red flag to warn approaching pedestrians and motorists.
• In Los Angeles, CA, it is legal for a man to beat his wife with a leather strap as long as it is less than two inches in width, or she gives him permission to use a wider strap.
• In Greene, NY, it is illegal to eat peanuts and walk backwards on the sidewalks when a concert is on.
• In Miami, FL, it is illegal for men to be seen publicly in any kind of strapless gown.
• In Natoma, KS, it is illegal to throw knives at men wearing striped suits.
• In WV, it is legal for one to take roadkill home for dinner.
• In Duluth, MN, it is illegal to allow animals to sleep in a bakery.
• In NC, it is illegal to make love on the floor of a hotel room between two double beds.

I love reading stuff like this.. Hey, you never know when you might need to know some of this stuff..

Daily Thoughts, Unleashed

I have nothing to really post, single subject wise. I am kinda random today. I'm exhausted from this weekend. I can't concentrate on anything for a lengthy period of time.

Random thoughts of the day...

• Guys have it easy when they get their hair cut.. Women always get criticized about their hair being dry, needing color, etc. I have priorities, and spending $30 on their special shampoo that keeps my hair from drying out, isn't one of them.

• Little drunk girls who flirt with my husband when were out, crack me up. You may be young and cute, but he didn't get me by me being easy and obvious, so chances are he isn't attracted to you being that way.

• Celebrities don't give a shit about you.

• If you died tomorrow, it'd be a sad day for..... ?

• You shouldn't have to do whatever a
woman says to be considered a good dad.

• It's hard to come up with a first name that sounds good with Jill.

• Your opinion quit mattering over a year ago & won't ever matter again.

• You said I would never make anything of myself. What are you doing to make something of yourself?

• How do you get a DWI... For real?

• I'm ready to get out of this town & onto bigger & better things.

...GoodNight!!