Yesterday I was very upset because I felt like my friends and family were really letting me down about something. I feel a lot better about it today because things turned out better because of one person. I have always thought that family was most important; friends come second. But because Tyler has a very distant relationship with a lot of his family, he relies on his friends to be his family, besides me and my family. Sometimes my friends do more for me than my family. I am not referring to people specifically because that is drama that I am not intending to start. All I have to say is that I wish certain people would care more. I am tired of them pretending to care and/or being fake about how they are with us. I feel like we are a huge inconvenience to some people. We have been through a lot, and all we are looking for is some support. We have taken the steps to help ourselves so I am tired of people acting like we are working backwards. We are progressing. I am thankful that we have the same doctor so we are all able to communicate and stay on the same page with our conditions.
It's hard to think of Carter being almost 2. It's hard to picture him even crawling. It's hard to picture him doing anything that he wasn't able to do. It's all sitting in my mind. I'm not angry about it, but I am very upset. I wish that we could go broke spoiling him to death. I have been doing a lot of thinking about having kids. Tyler and I will have many more talks about it. It's a complicated situation. One that I am blessed that we are getting to discussed rather than having to make it work because it has already happened.
I'm gonna leave it here.
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