"Be happy"... I know, easier said than done

Overall, I am happy with my life. I have a wonderful family and great set of friends. I have a great job. I have a roof over my head. Food on the table. Gas in the car. Money to pay bills (even though I don't have much left over when I do). I have so much more than some people have. But sometimes it is still hard to be completely happy with life. I think that I have too high of expectations for people and for things in my life. I get this picture in my head of what things are supposed to be like and if things do not go that way, then I am a little disappointed, I guess. I finally brought it back up to my doctor that I need something to calm my nerves. I have yet to try both sets of medication that he put me on, but that was more like my mom telling me how one of them might affect me seeing as how she knows how medication treats me. For the most part, I am doing really well. I have only had 2 days since I have been on it that I felt like it didn't really work. It's not a cure-all so I am not a totally new person, but I feel like there has been a major change since I have been on it. One thing that I dreaded being on medication was feeling tired all of the time and being sick at my stomach the first week that I was on it. I also thought that I could just make myself be happy. Like I said, it's easier said than done. "1...2...3...Be happy." Yeah right. It doesn't work that way. Ignoring the problem(s) doesn't work. Period. There are so many good things in my life, but because I have let the bad override the good, I couldn't focus on what was important. In a sense, I was ruining my life. I was pushing everyone away that was important to me. I am proud that I finally took the first step in helping myself. That was to accept that I needed help to be happy. One thing that I want people to know is that you cannot rely on people to make you happy. If you are unhappy on the inside, there is nothing that people can do to change that if you have a chemical imbalance. You cannot make someone be happy. You have to be happy with yourself to be completely happy with someone else. I am on my way to be a happier daughter, a happier sister, a happier wife, a happier friend, a happier teacher, a happier co-worker... a happier person.