For about a week now, or I guess since the kids at school started working on their Mother's Day cards/projects, I have been thinking about Carter being here (and about something else). I keep wondering if he would have thought of me as his mother or would he even love me being his stepmother. It's such an awkward and disappointing feeling to me. Questions that I'll never have the answers to just sit in my mind.
I was at Walmart this morning printing off pictures and looking for my mom and Tyler's grandma a Mother's Day card, and of course there were stepmother cards. I had to pick up at least one and read it. Good thing I only read one because I almost immediately started crying. I just wish I could be honored on this day. Every chance I had of being a mother has been taken away from me. It's not fair to either of us really.
I came across an article- Mother's Day for Stepmoms - just a little bit ago that is basically how I feel, minus the fact that no children are present in my situation.
There isn't much else I can say about it. Just wish I could wake up to a "Happy Mother's Day" tomorrow.
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