As we all know, I'm pretty horrible at staying committed to projects unless it's somethng that I'm doing for someone else as a gift. But this one, I feel like I have to do. Without going into any major detail, I have been very unhappy for quite some time. I'm talking a couple of years. Of course I have had my good days; they are not all bad. But overall, I am not a happy person. I've struggled with a lot lately.
Anyway, so I've decided at the end of every week, I'm going to reflect on all of the good happenings of the past week. It's worth a shot, right? I know that my problems are deep, but all of the positive that I can draw out of my life might help me from thinking "Wow, this week sucked" and it might keep me from feeling so exhausted at the end of the week so that I can enjoy my weekends more. What do I have to lose? Everyday, I'll document things that made me happy. I may still be in denial that I need to talk to someone again, but until the funds become available on top of all the other bills that I have, I'm trying everything that I can.
I want my life back.
I want to be a happy daughter, a happy wife, a happy sister, a happy friend, a happy teacher.
I'm walking into this as being a success and for it to be a step forward. I would love to have someone join me in this. Either join me, or help me to keep the positive in perspective.
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